Thursday, June 21, 2007

Like Music

Wow, I can't believe it's been a whole week. But it's been good, overall--I'm down to 252.3! Mostly it's been through skipping the late-night chocolate fix. It's amazing to me that one small change could have such good results.

However, it's still not an easy change, because that little chocolate alarm goes off faithfully each evening, and I have to think of some way to distract myself long enough to get past it.

And now, since the library has finally gotten around to my number on the waiting list, I have a copy of the audiobook of The Secret that I listened to yesterday. I'm thrilled.

I took the day off yesterday, partly because I'm finally out of the Paid-time-off hole I got into last November when DH had some major surgery and my employer let me take time off that I hadn't earned yet. The other part was that I really need to re-think the way my life is going. So I decided that it was time to weed the neglected garden. While I did, I listened to the audiobook.

Now, Rhonda Byrne advocates throwing away the scales and focusing on meditation and fully intending to bring about a perfect, healthy body that stays at the perfect weight no matter what you eat. You put up photos of yourself at your perfect weight, if you'd ever acheived that goal in the past, or photos of what you wanted to look like. Present, but not played up, was the idea that you need to be mindful of what you're eating and how eating makes you feel. That made a lot of sense to me.

I have done a lot of mindless eating, shoveling in the calories while online, or while working, or reading or whatever. But it's better if you put your whole attention on your food while you eat--chew each bite, savor the flavors, feel how your body changes as you ingest the food. I'll make that my new intention.

My intention: At mealtime, I bless my food for supporting my body and increasing my pleasure when I eat it. I savor each bite, noticing the flavors and the texture of the food while I give thanks for the ability to taste and enjoy my food thoroughly. I pay attention to how my body feels, and when it is satisfied, I save the rest of the food for later. Eating is like music, you have to let go of each note in order to hear the melody, and if some food won't be perfect later on, it's okay to let it go and make fresh food next time.

My life is filled with abundance, for the earth produces perfect food for me all the time, more food than I can ever want, and it's there to share and enjoy and savor. I am a spiritual being in a material form, loving and experiencing every moment of this existence. The air flows through me, the water and food flow through me, experiences flow through me like music.